Not coming back...

Well guys, I am officially going to stop hoping, thinking and praying that Macie is going to ever come back. She's been missing for 3 days now and the chances of her still being alive are slim. I'm confused as to why this all happened and have been really wrestling with the whole situation mentally. Losing Sadie was bad enough but then I thought that this was the answer--a way to make our sadness over Sadie diminish and bring back the joy to our lives (that kind of joy and companionship that only doggies give). Anyway, I have to remind myself (as many of my good friends have said) that God sometimes answers our prayers in ways that we don't understand. Even though it doens't make sense ---He is still in control and HE ultimately knows--better than we do--what we need and what is best for us.
What stinks is...now that it is all said and done...I'm STILL without any little doggie to hold and love on. Yes, we still have Sam...and I love him DEARLY...but I promise you it is just downright annoying to him all the affection I try to give him. He looks at me like "woman, would you PLEASE just leave me alone???" He weighs about 50 pounds...so getting him up on my lap is a work out and then he looks miserable the whole time. He's so sweet though--he'll just tolerate me for as long as he has to until I finally relent and give him his space (and his big comfy dog bed) back.
Anyway, I'm going to really try to NOT be "looking" for another dog just yet...but I will certainly be keeping my ears open just in case!
Oh and...Happy Halloween Y'all! Remember: This is the day that the Lord has made! :o)