II Chronicles 7:14

If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Time is Life

I know, it's been a while since I've written much of anything on here...but it's like this....for me....Time = Life. To some people, Time = Money (but that's probably those people who have a paying job). Me on the other hand...I feel like every minute that I spend doing something for myself (cleaning, shopping, blogging, watching TV, reading, whatever) is a minute I feel like I am taking away from my family. I know there are times when I need to do things for myself, but at the end of the day if I reflect on what I've gotten done... all I can list out is a bunch of me-stuff and hardly any "quality" time with my family. Granted...what I am calling me-stuff is cooking, cleaning, laundry, paying bills, grocery shopping, etc. REAL me-stuff would be scrapbooking, (fun) shopping, reading (a novel or something), working out, blogging, etc. Anyway, it sounds silly, but I feel like my husband thinks I am having an affair with the computer. Meaning that I am cheating him out of time with me so I can spend time on the computer. Usually, (at least up until recently) I did all my blogging in the evening when the kids have gone to bed. But...that is also the only time when he and I can have time together without the kids...so when I am in here doing this instead of in there with him...he gets kind of jealous. (which totally makes sense). However, about the only other time I can find to blog or do me-stuff is in the afternoon while Grant is napping...but then that is also the only opportunity I have during the day to spend special, quality time with Brooklyn (and she needs that right now SO desperatly). Plus, the afternoons is also the time I try to do my transcription work so that I can spend the evenings off the computer and with my family.
I don't know....maybe I am making things too complicated...it seems like I can't ever get my "ducks in a row" and have some order to my life. There is always a ton of places I need to go, things I need to do, people I need to call...and on and on. The minute I get home from Wal-Mart, I start making another list. It's THAT bad. Anyway, as much as I LOVE LOVE LOVE writing on here...if you don't hear from me for a while, (hopefully) it is because I am playing with my kids or "being" with my husband.
Anyway, when something noteworthy happens around here, don't worry, I will find time to tell you all about it...but as for my "fun" posts where I just debate certain subjects or ramble endlessley...they will have to be less often for a while...at least until my "ducks are in (somewhat of) a row"!
I love you all!!!


Amy said...

I couldn't have said it better myself. I love having a blog, but why do I feel guilty if I don't post for a while? Like I need another thing to feel guilty about, right? Lately I've been spending a lot of time doing work-related stuff at home. (Lesson plans, etc) And this has REALLY cut down on the amount of time I have w/J. Plus, who wants to hear all the mundane details I would usually write on my blog: "I got up at 5:30, got dressed, went to work, wiped some noses, helped kids go potty, played outside, had lunch, etc, etc." Not too interesting if I blogged about that day after day after day. But I know my sweet little grandma checks my blog every single day to see if I've written anything and that makes me feel like I HAVE to write something...even if it's just "Hi. I'm extremely busy right now. Not doing anything interesting, just working." :) But yay for you that you've decided to make more time for you. You deserve it.
Love and miss you,