This is not really a post

I am writing to tell you I won't be writing. I have a hundred things to say on here that I'll probably never remember when I actually have the time to type them out...but for now, I just can't blog. I have 19 people coming to my house tomorrow night and I have LOTS of planning and cooking and cleaning to do before that happens. It is 11:23 pm right now and I can hardly see straight. I've been going since 5:30 am this morning (after only getting about 5 hours of sleep) and I feel like a zombie. I know I've been neglecting my blog...but it'll have to wait a few more days. I have lots of pictures though to share and stories. I hope you all have a very wonderful Christmas, full of last-a-lifetime memories! Take a minute and slow down--enjoy every second of it--as if it were your last Christmas. This will be our first Christmas without my grandma and I realize now, more than ever, that life is so precious and fleeting. It can be taken from you at any second--so it really is important to make the most of the time you have! I don't want to ever look back and say "if only I'd___________".

Anyway, don't know exactly where that came from---okay, yes I do. That is what is in my heart this Christmas. I want to BE IN THE MOMENT this year. I don't want to be the busy hostess who is only getting things for everyone else and behind the camera the whole time--cleaning up messes and washing dishes and when I finally take a breath, realize that I missed the whole thing. No. This year I want to be in the middle of the action. I want to see the looks through my own eyes and not the camera lens on the faces of my children when they open their gifts. I want to actually read the Christmas story from the Bible like we did when I was a kid and even though we've heard it so many times---take some time to remember what this is all about. I want it to be clear that it's all about Jesus--HIS birth and HIS life that we are celebrating.
Okay...enough of my preaching...I really need to get to bed. Anyway, as I said, hope you have an amazing Christmas Day cherishing your loved ones!

Merry Christmas!