A season to be somber?

Hey there.

First of all...a special thanks to my friends Amos, Logzie and MissGotWings, for checking in on me. I guess it has been a bit since I've blogged (for me anyway).

Somber (adj.):

1: so shaded as to be dark and gloomy

2 a: of a serious mien :b: of a dismal or depressing character : melancholy c: conveying gloomy suggestions or ideas

3: of a dull or heavy cast or shade

Can you see in my eyes in this picture? I can. Why is it there though? I don't know. Sure, I can muster up a few measly reasons (like the fact that my husband didn't even hardly notice I was wearing my wedding dress the other night) ...but not a big, significant one. Anyway, this probably explains why I haven't posted much in the past several days. I am in one of those moods where I've done a lot of sitting and staring at a blank wall. Brooklyn's asked me several times, "Mom, what are you looking at?"

I can't seem to find much of a laugh or lightheardness anywhere within me. What's frustrating about this is the fact that I have NOTHING to be unhappy about. You all know what a wonderful life I have...but even if I had NOTHING and I was the poorest, most ugly, unfortunate person in the world...I would still have PLENTY to be thankful for in that my heavenly Father sent His only Son to this earth to die for me so I could live eternally in Heaven with Him. That alone should be (and is) enough to put a smile on my face for the rest of my days. Of course, I have millions of reasons to be happy and thankful and non-gloomy, non-somber. So what's up with this?

There have been a lot of changes going on lately in my close friends lives...and I ask myself if maybe we're next...?? Maybe it's time for us to make some changes too? Didn't God say He would rather us be hot or cold--anything but lukewarm? (Rev. 3: 14-16) I feel pretty lukewarm these days. Stagnant. Going nowhere fast. Especially spiritually speaking. Praise God that at least I can recognize it. I do feel like we are on the brink of something. I haven't a CLUE as to what it is...but I know that God has been speaking to both Matt and me through various different things we've read or heard lately about the importance of fulfilling your calling. Neither of us is doing that right now. (although I do firmly believe that a young woman's and mother's first and most important ministry is to take good care of her husband and children and home)...I still feel as though I have more to offer. A peice of the puzzle is missing and I'm fairly certain it's the one where Matt and I work together to do something for God. What is it though, Lord?

Hey, I wonder if God reads my blog??? ha ha ha...okay...that thought put a big smile on my face! :o)

So, that's where I've "been" lately.

For something less serious, here are a few pics from Saturday. The first one is of our neighbor who graciously came over with his big tractor and tilled up our soon-to-be garden. Now it's just time to go buy the plants and get them in the ground! Hooray! (Logzie, have you started your's yet? It's TIME!)

This second one is of a bone Grant found out in the field beside our house! That's one heck of a bone, I'd say!! Matt said it's probably from a cow! At first I was totally grossed out...but hey...the dogs love chewing on it and it was free...so whatever! ha ha

This next picture is of a book I am reading that is Amazing! It's by a wonderful Christian author, Dr. Keven Leman--you may have heard of him..?? Anyway, the title is Sheet Music and I promise you...it has nothing to do with playing an instrument---unless you consider your body an instrument! ha ha. Anyway, thanks to CS who mentioned this book on her blog and I was so intrigued by the title, I went and checked it out from the library for myself. If you are looking to put some spice in your marriage...or even if you just need a refresher course on some of the how-to's or what-to's....this is the book to read. It's straightforward and brilliantly blunt but coming from a Christian author, it's not embarrasing or disgusting. Check it out... I promise you won't be sorry...and your hubby will love it too. This is one book he'll actually read with you!

Lastly, here is the pic of me that I promised you all. I am wearing my wedding dress--10 years later. I had to pour myself into it...but hey, I got it on and didn't rip a seam so I consider that an accomplishment. I am not loving this picture at ALL...but I am NOT putting this dress on again...maybe ever...but definitely not for a while...so I figured I better post it now. I probably should have waited for a happier moment and when I was actually "made up" to put it on...then maybe I would have liked the pic better. Oh well.....