II Chronicles 7:14

If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

Friday, January 16, 2009

Pressured

So, the kids are sleeping over at grandma and grandpas tonight. We finally have the house to ourselves. We can do whatever we want. No interruptions, no distractions, no little eyes peering into the darkness that envelops our bedroom saying "what're y'all doin'?"
And yet....there is TOO MUCH PRESSURE.
The "mood" is no where to be found.
I'm here on the computer. Matt's in the other room in his recliner. We've already had the dreaded awkward talk where we both admit that neither of us really feels like it and that we're both pretty tired.
But I can't just let it go. It's been a loooooooooooooooong time since we've had a night without the kids. I can't even remember the last time. AND...in order to get her to agree to keepng both kids all night, I actually had to admit to my mom that we "NEEDED" this time alone. Gaahhhh!! How embarassing!
It's just so dang frustrating. If I just turn off my laptop, roll over and go to sleep like my body is longing to do...I'll feel like I totally wasted our one and only night. But if I go against what I feel and make a move...then I'll feel like I'm doing it just because I feel like I HAVE to. Grrrr... This is SO not how they make it look in the movies. Aren't we supposed to be tearing each others clothes off and falling onto the bed in a fit of passion--nearly sucking the lips off each other?
Man, where have THOSE days gone?
Probably packed away with my yearbooks and mini skirts and curling irons. :0)

Okay...one thing I know for certain, I don't want to spend my night on the computer. Sex or sleep--either way the computer has to be put away! Goodnight y'all!

8 comments:

Kate said...

no, it's certainly not like the movies~ It's just real life :) Try not to take it too seriously and just enjoy spending some free time with him. It's hard to appreciate those little moments if we're always looking for more.

Rissalee said...

I just hope your mom doesn't read your blog! :o)

Tammy said...

Well, I hope you got down to business (maybe he was waiting for you to take charge - boys dig that). And if you didn't, I hope you at least got a good night's sleep. HA!

Don't ever feel pressured in those situations - just enjoy the flippin' QUIET! Ahhh, preciou quiet. I need some of that right now ....

amanda said...

i hear you about the pressured thing. but you also do NEED those nights alone. just the two of you. 'sex or no sex' you need to remember to take that time for each other and then let the rest happen. we try to do a date night once a month. it works. it helps. and the mood gets set each time a bit faster...the first time it didn't. but after a few months of taking that MUCH needed time for just the two of us it is SO much easier to 'want' to do 'it'. wow i cannot believe i just commented all that. :0) praying for you!!

Teresa said...

Oh my gosh...girl you crack me up!! You just put it out there and I love that!! LOL!!

Listen, when I was on Zoloft for those few months...all sexdrive was gone...WAY gone. Well...let's just say that things have changed since going off that medication...WAY changed.

**grins**

...hope you managed to 'get some'...LOL!!

Teresa said...

I think I'm lacking that thing on my mouth (and now on my fingers) that says "hey Teresa, maybe you should'nt say/write that for the WORLD TO SEE"...LOL...sorry if my last comment was too...you know. :)

Chief Rock Chef said...

OMG - this reads like a Teresa post! :-)

Well I obviously don't know how it turned out, but I do know that when my wife and I are in that sort of situation (literally crawling into bed to die) the energy arrives from SOMEWHERE. I think the body stores up a little boost of something that it will only use for sex, nothing else.

Hope you enjoyed your time, even if you just ended up snuggling up and sleeping.

Demi Eliese said...

we are so similar, haha! I'll give you 2 words-passion party! and the item you must get is called "sensual explosion." it will put you in the mood, even when you don't want to--great stuff! You could probably google it too. :)