The "itch"

This past weekend, I got a wild hair and decided to dig through our VHS tapes and find some old family videos. I found one and stuck it in, not knowing what was going to be on it. It started out with some cute videos of Brooklyn singing and dancing when she was about 2. Then it switched over to me laying in a hospital bed about to give birth to Grant. I was overcome with gladness...as I had completely thought that I had erased that video! For the past 2 or so years...I have not allowed myself to watch any home videos because I was just SICK that I had recorded over the tape that had his birth on it. (or so I had thought). I just couldn't bring myself to watch the tapes and finalize it---that it was gone--so I had just stayed away from it all. I haven't even video TAPED anything in the past 2 years either! Anyway, so, we are sitting there watching the tape and I am getting all teary eyed with all of this. How precious and sweet my little curly-haired red-headed girl was! Always singing and dancing and making up songs that include the words "I love my mommy so much" in them! Then, along comes Grant. This BEAUTIFUL baby boy who stole my heart the SECOND he arrived. I've been IN LOVE with him ever since. Suddenly I find myself wanting another baby and wanting one NOW and BAD! This led me to the computer to search for a puppy. You see the correlation right? I mean, I obviously can't have another baby and I sure can't have one RIGHT THIS MINUTE...so the next best thing is a puppy. So, I find one, call about it, go see it and they give it to me right then. (which was last night). We stop at Wal-Mart and spend $50 on a bed, toys, a collar and some food and bring the little guy home. The kids are in love and so excited! Then he potties in the floor. Oh well...you have to expect that with a puppy right? Anyway...long story short...he pottied in the floor 6 more times by morning and Matt and I started thinking about what all this puppy was going to require. We realized that we REALLY hadn't thought this whole idea through and we'd made a mistake. Besides the potty training issue...another dog means more $$ for food, vet bills, groomer, etc. Also more poop to scoop and LOTS more responsibility. Since he's a puppy...he chews on EVERYTHING in sight and that was going to be impossible to keep everything picked up all the time...plus, we'd have to find a way to feed him and Sam seperately since Sam is on a special diet. It just wasn't going to work. So, this morning before we left for school, I made the kids say their "Final" good-byes to our little Brody. They were very sad...but I told them that it was for the best and that he'd find another home where the people will take good care of him. Then I took him back this morning and it about BROKE my heart. He is SO cute and SWEET! I've been so extra-emotional lately anyway...but then this...ugh! whah!!!

So, here's what our puppy-for-a-day looked like. He's back up for adoption if any of you are interested!