II Chronicles 7:14

If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

Anyone know God's e-mail address?

I wonder if God reads my blog...? Wouldn't it be awesome to get a comment from Him? I could do a whole post on whatever crisis I'm going through at the moment and then He could leave me a comment saying "Jen what I would suggest you do is ___________. "
Just the thought gets me giddy inside. A clear, concise answer from God Almighty! Who DOESN'T want/need that???

Go with me here. I know that I am being somewhat "carnal" minded in this post but I'm fairly certain all of us, even the most spirtual ones, have at one time or another just wished it was as simple as getting a comment or text message from God about what to do. I know that God has given us his Word---basically the instruction book of life. I know that He has given us the Holy Spirit---our teacher, counselor and friend. I know that He sent His son Jesus to live and die for us, giving us healing, forgiveness and rightousness. As a matter of fact...there is nothing else we need that He didn't give us. The problem is: We don't know what do do with it.
What good is a tool bag full of the best tools if you aren't familiar with them, how they work and what they are used for?
I can just imagine a new carpenter beginning his first job. He's excited and ready to go. He reaches into his tool bag and pulls out something that he know's he's seen before...but just can't quite figure out how to use it to get the desired result.
That is exactly how I feel right now. I know I'm equipped with everything I need. I am totally excited and ready to 'get to work', I'm trying to use my tools (the Word, prayer) the best way that I know how...but for some reason (which is extremely frustrating to me)...it seems that nothing is happening. Or even worse...what IS happening is that I'm making the problem bigger.
Oh me, Oh my.

I know this post is probably somewhat of a mish-mash of thoughts and words that may not make any sense to any of you...but the bottom line is this: I know I am at a crossroads. Some choices have to be made. My life, for the past 30 years, has been preparing me for this moment--this time--when I will step out in the calling God has on my life, whatever it may be. I'm not satisfied to 'just exist' anymore. I want it more than life itself (to be living out my destiny) and yet I'm stuck in a state of confusion. I'm not afraid to 'step out of the boat', I'm just not sure which direction to step out.

If only it were as simple as a quick text message up to Heaven saying "Hey Dad, what was it again U wanted me 2 do here?"

Anyone else feel like this sometimes?


Amy said...

I do! A LOT! I want to say "OK Lord, I know you've got plans for me but would you mind just spelling them out 'cause I sure can't seem to figure out what they are!" :)

I watched a video (actually TWO videos) today that really spoke to me.


Check it out and let me know what you think.

Amos said...

You just wrote the very words I have been thinking lately. I think there are a lot of us at a crossroads. It is hard to remember that our thoughts are not His thoughts for us. We want to figure it out and it always comes around to total dependence on Him.