II Chronicles 7:14

If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Maybe someday...

Maybe someday I'll be a blogger again. I want to be. I miss it. I miss all my friends and your comments, but for now, I just can't do it. Even though I want to..and I think of things that would "make a great blog post" all the time, I just can NOT seem to get my booty in here and actually take the time to think it through and type it out...not to mention taking the time to actually upload photos.
BLAH!
That's what I feel like. BLAH!
I don't know what's going on with me lately, I'm definitely changing. Hopefully they're changes for the good...right now it's all a bit weird and foreign to me. I've never been so disconnected before. In ways, I love it and I feel so free and in some other ways, I feel a bit lonely and left out. I guess (as much as I hate to admit it) I'm realizing that I'm not really THAT important. All these things I was SO involved in...things that I thought practically couldn't function without me...are doing JUST FINE without me.
Even Facebook....I've been off for a whole week now...and no one has even seemed to care or hardly even notice. I think maybe 3 people have asked me about it...which is TOTALLY fine, because quite honestly, I'd rather not talk about it a whole lot...but I guess I just expected a least 25% of my 300+ fb friends to say "OH MY GOSH WHERE IS MY FAVORITE PERSON JEN???" ha ha ha ha..I'm just kidding, I don't have THAT much pride...but...it's just humbling I guess to realize that everything goes on just fine without me. The children's department at church, the PTO, the kid's class parties, blogging, facebook , etc.
Wow, does it sound like I'm throwing a pity party or what? I'm NOT. :) I'm actually quite content at the moment...just reflecting on what's been going through my brain lately, that's all.

What I was really getting on here to say is HI! I hope you have a Merry Christmas! and if I don't talk to you again before then...HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Please feel free to e-mail me anytime!
jennimatt10@hotmail.com
Love,
Jen

4 comments:

Kate said...

hi girl! you know where to find me and that you can always call me. we will still find a way to keep in touch :) Muah!

KC said...

I'm here too!
Isn't it "freeing" to NOT feel like you have to constantly check facebook and blogs though?! I find that the days where I'm busy and don't have time for it, I don't even miss it.
But I do MISS YOU!!!!!!
Love ya sweetie!

Rene' said...

hey its ok to not be 'tied' to the fb or blog, we can talk directly instead :)

Kuckie said...

I've been having trouble keeping up with my blog all year. Trying to turn that around in 2011...I miss it too. But I'm experiencing the same exact thing you are...I think of all kinds of good blog posts, but just can't seem to sit down and DO IT. Rest assured, I'll still be reading though! Miss ya!