II Chronicles 7:14

If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Going 2 a school that's new...really makes me feel blue!

Today was the open house for Brooklyn's new school. She is starting Pre-K at the public elementary tomorrow. She is totally fine with all this...but me...I'm not. School wasn't a particularly fun thing for me until about my junior year in high school. I always had major insecurity and felt inferior. It's been such a long time since I was in any kind of school, I thought I had outgrown all that...but today walking into that school....all those feelings came rushing back at me. I felt panicky because I couldn't find the right classroom and nervous about meeting all the new kids/parents. I was nervous that teacher wouldn't like me and I didn't feel as "cool" as all the other moms. Isn't that silly? It's not even me going to school...and I am still having all these crazy emotions. I just hope I don't rub off on Brooklyn. She is so much more confident than I ever was as a child and I definitely do not want to mess that up.
Also, running through my mind was the fact that up until now she has been attending Christian school...where they have Bible stories every day, don't promote things like monsters and goblins at Halloween and don't celebrate imaginary icons like santa and the Easter bunny. Everything there is focused on God...which we LOVE. Now that she'll be in public school...we won't have that anymore..plus, I don't like it that she is surrounded by bigger kids now instead children the same age or younger than her. Maybe I am just being an over-protective mom...but if you have a child entering school or have ever had..then I bet you have felt these same things. I mean, she's only 4...that seems so young to be out in the public world to fend for herself. Thank GOD.. for His protective angels that guard over us at all times! I don't know how people who don't know Christ can get through things like this. I'd be a nervous wreck. Well, anyhow, I guess I should try to get some sleep. It's gonna be a big day tomorrow. I will let you know how it goes. If you have any advice for me....I'd sure appreciate it. Sometimes I feel like a big kid trying to raise these little kids. I don't feel old enough and certainly not qualified enough to make these decisions regarding their futures! So if you've "been there" and "done that", tell me what worked for you! K? Thanks! Nighty night 2 U all!


Anonymous said...

i don't think anyone is "qualitfied" to b a mom!
but i thin kur a pretty good one.. and remember you don't have to be a super mom! thats one thing my mom said that she wish she would have know.. so theres your advice from me.. even though i have NO experience.. lol .. <3 ya c u soon!
<3 me ;)