II Chronicles 7:14

If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

If life's a dance, I must be doing the quick-step!

Ya, you've been hearing me whine about being "too busy" and "overwhelmed with responsiblities" for years on here...
So what have I done now?
Well...signed up for MORE, what else?
Really, I think I have a disease. It's the "I only live once so I want to do it ALL" disease.
There are a rare few things I DON'T want to EVER experience...but other than that, I say BRING IT ON.
The problem with that is I have to be a wife and a mother and clean house and earn a paycheck and none of that really lends itself to a thing called SPARE TIME. In a quest to "do it all" in the midst of my LIFE, I seem to be trying to cram as much as possible into every day.
In the end, I am exhausted and grouchy and SPENT!
Spent (adj.) - a feeling of being burned out, physically, mentally and spiritually. Symptoms may include, but are not limited to: exhaustion, insomnia, digestive problems, irritability and unexplained joint or back pain.
Uh ya...that pretty much explains it.
There are days, like today for instance, where MENTALLY I am feeling totally PUMPED! I feel great and encouraged and just overall HAPPY---but THESE are the kinds of days that get me into trouble! When I'm exhausted, I have a MUCH EASIER time saying "no" to things. But when I'm feeling like I do right now, I say "yes" before people even get done asking the question. YES I want to teach a fitness class on Thursday! YES I want to be homeroom mom for BOTH my kids classes! YES I want to buy $50 worth of scrapbook stuff and go to a crop with you! YES I want to volunteer in this, that and the other departments at church! YES! YES! YES!
Somewhere in there, is a big problem. I'm beginning to think it's ME. This is who I am. This is what I do. This is how I live. To change would be to change my innermost being, the person God created to be Jennifer. Right? Surely there must be a way to "tame" me without making me someone entirely different. I just don't know what it's gonna take.
So...there you go Tammy! Ha ha..you asked for a new post. Bet you didn't know I was gonna barf all over ya'll! This is just what is going on in my life right now....so it's all I could think of to talk about.
One day SPENT.
One day STOKED.
One day ELATED.
and on and on and on.....


Tammy said...

I'd like to tell you to breathe and slow down. I'd like to tell you to 'say no.' But I'm probably not the right person for that since I wouldn't be taking my own advice. I feel like I'll sleep when I'm dead ... so might as well cram as much into this life as I can!!! And your kids are seeing a fine example of how one can really juggle it all!! Go Jen!

P.S. Thanks for the new post :)

Amy said...

I feel like that at times and I'm not NEARLY as busy as you are! I don't know how you do it!

Rene' said...

everytime I read your posts about how busy you are, it makes me feel guilty for wanting to ask you to do something ;( But I love spending time with you, so I'm going to do it anyway ;) the park was fun, maybe we can do it again soon while the weather is still good. See u fri at class?